tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20463985850671030492012-02-16T19:47:51.481-08:00A place where I can write through my feelings and pain as I deal with the consequences of my decisions to disobey God in pursuit of what I thought would satisfy me. The choices we make in life leave scars even after salvation but he promises that His grace is sufficient and that He who started a good work will be faithful to complete it, so here's to the beginning of my part in the process of getting there knowing that He will be there to hold me up and comfort me every step of the way.Domenicanoreply@blogger.comBlogger21100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2046398585067103049.post-70967716812740836472011-02-03T17:50:00.001-08:002011-02-03T18:10:46.989-08:00Standing on the outside<br />never let in<br />why do i always seem to choose them?<br />emotionally unavailable<br />held at arms length<br />always taking<br />never giving<br />it's always the same thing.<br />I'm on the outside looking in.<br />Why don't they see me?<br />Why can't they feel?<br />Why do they hurt me?<br />It's so unreal.<br />It's come around again<br />I stand before you<br />You say you may never feel the same things for me<br />yet here I go again<br />jumping right in<br />hoping and pleading<br />please let him see me<br />please let him feel<br />don't let him hurt me<br />let this one be real<br />Please, let this time be real!<br />But, it's so confusing.<br />Never knowing<br />always feeling used,<br />never knowing if tomorrow you'll be gone.<br />What do I do?<br />Is love really worth the risk?<br />Is this love at all?<br />Here I fall.<br />Again!<br />Fading into you, getting more confused, allowing myself to be abused.<br />You never lied. <br />Why do I keep standing on the outside looking in?<br />Expecting things to change....<br />maybe it's time for me to change?<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/2046398585067103049-7096771681274083647?l=shatteredpiecesofme.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Domenicanoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2046398585067103049.post-83731921990013241772011-01-11T20:04:00.000-08:002011-01-11T20:07:33.308-08:00<span style="font-size:130%;"><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0); font-family: arial;"></span><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0); font-family: arial;">Pieces of me left behind</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0); font-family: arial;">what I once believed turned out to be a lie!</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0); font-family: arial;">This young girl's dream- GONE-</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0); font-family: arial;">invaded by reality and all that I am left with</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0); font-family: arial;">is shattered pieces of me</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0); font-family: arial;">looking up at you</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0); font-family: arial;">and you can see it too</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0); font-family: arial;">shame in your eyes</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0); font-family: arial;">because you're a part of the lies </span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0); font-family: arial;">as you look down on what's left of me</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0); font-family: arial;">you realize what you've done</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0); font-family: arial;">you've broken another one</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0); font-family: arial;">and you didn't want to do it</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0); font-family: arial;">but it's done</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0); font-family: arial;">what the hell is wrong with me?</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0); font-family: arial;">how did I get here again?</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0); font-family: arial;">This isn't what I wanted</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0); font-family: arial;">not for me</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0); font-family: arial;">not for us</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0); font-family: arial;">Shattered pieces of me</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0); font-family: arial;">now lay scattered </span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0); font-family: arial;">as each man came and went </span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0); font-family: arial;">stealing my heart</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0); font-family: arial;">tearing me apart </span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0); font-family: arial;">running away</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0); font-family: arial;">never wanting to stay</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0); font-family: arial;">What the hell is wrong with me?</span><br /><br /><br /></span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/2046398585067103049-8373192199001324177?l=shatteredpiecesofme.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Domenicanoreply@blogger.com0